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| SO, last night I had kind of a tough night. God has really been trying to teach me something and for some reason I'm having a hard time learning it. Last night it all came together though. I was telling some of my friends about a story that i once heard, and while telling that story, God taught me what I needed to hear. Here's the story..... -I was sitting in the hand of my Savior by myself. I was completely focused on Him and in a deep conversation with Him. It was easy to tell that He was everything to me. I didn't see anyone else around me. My eyes were soely focused on Him and Him alone. During our conversation He was raving about me. He told me how beautiful He thought I was and how He felt when He looked at me. He was completely enthralled with me and it was obvious. At some point in our conversation, I asked Him if He was ever going to send me someone on earth to show me love like He did, and all He said was, "Wait." Time went by and I waited all along while keeping my focus on the one who loved me more than anyone. It didn't matter to me that I was sitting by myself, because He was all around me. After what seemed like an eternity, I saw out of the corner of my eye, His other hand coming into view. The next thing I knew, "he" came into view. God put his hand together and I found myself standing by my perfect match. I looked up at God and asked,"Is this the one that you're giving me?'' At the same time the"one" was asking the same question. God looked at us both and smiled while putting our hands together. We looked at eachother, smiled, then sat down in the hands of our Savior and looked up into His face.- It's crazy because I've told that story to so many people, so many times, but it never registered the way it did last night. When I meet someone that I think might be "sent from God," I tend to focus my attention on the man instead of focusing my attention on God and God bringing the "one" to my attention out of the corner of my eye. God will bring him to me, but I have to keep my focus on God even after I think that I've met the "one." By the way.......Ensamble just got back from our first tour so here are some pictures 
Megan, Danielle, Bri, and Me in our suits 
The Boys wlth thier "Big Rigs" 
Just a Randon Pic that I really like 
The Beautiful North Carolina 
Us Girls looking Hottttt in Black 
Isn't God amazing? 
All of us at Megan's House - My sister Just had her Baby and He's beautiful His name is Tommy Jr      
Isn't he so beautiful????? I can't wait to hold him! Yay I'm an Auntie!!! | | |
| So, God has been doing so much in my life the past couple weeks, it's amazing! I finally got myself an accountability partner and I'm so excided! Our meetings have been going really well and it's really helping me and my pride issue. For those of you that I've talked to...you know that I'm going through more than just a pride issue though......I really have been struggling with being content with where i am right now. I really want to get married and everything, so I've been complaining a lot. God showed me so much today. I had a revelation that was absolutely unbelievable....... .......When Abraham was commanded to sacrifice his only son, he could have said no. When he chose to obey that command from God, he was choosing to give up of a blessing that God himself gave but also of his own wants and his desires. Remember, God promised him that he would have as many descendants as there are stars in the sky. So, for Abraham to want this wasn't ungodly, but God was asking him to give up of that desire, and sacrifice it. God seems to require us to do this often. He'll bless us with something or put a desire in our hearts, but then asks us to give it back to him. He asks us to sacrifice something to show him that we're holding nothing above him. We are constantly hearing the words, "Die to yourself" but do any of us really know what that means? What it means to me, is Daily giving up my desires and "idols" and make the Lord everything to me. Idols aren't just belongings or people(physical things) but they also include my wants, dreams, and desires. Is there any desire in my life that God wants me to give up? Is there something that I'm holding above the Lord? From this day on...I sacrifice my "Isaac" of being married and being married. I put them in the Lord's hands. ---I mean it this time. I will daily give up that desire and quit making it so important. Why do I want a human man so much when I have the God of the universe loving me more than anyone could ever love me? | | |
| So.......This weekend has been crazy! First of all, I had to say goodbye to my family on thursday, then I arrived at WOLBI at 2'o'clock Friday morning. My flight was really late because there was a bomb threat on my plane. Yeah....really scary!!!! I arrived to my room and discovered that I had 3 other roommates, but no worries, they're all amazing! So God's already doing amazing things in my life already and I'm having an amazing time! Only 3 more months and my year will be over and I'll be an intern. I also made it in the traveling ensamble and I will be traveling with 6 other people for the duration of the year. I'm excided about this year!!!!!!!!! | | |
| Wheeeeeee!!!!!!! I have less than a week till I go
back!!!!!!! I'm so excided! I never thought that I would
miss the Word Of Life Bubble, But guess what......I do! I love
how I never really have to worry about getting into trouble. I
mean the worst that Iever did was sneak out after lights out and go to
Denny's. I know what ya'll are thinking, "what a rebel," but at
home it's so much worse. My friends do anything and everything
imaginable and I know I would get caught up in it again, so it's
amazing that God has given me the opportunity to be in the "bubble" And
for me, It's longer than 1 year! I have the opportunity to be an
intern!!!! I'm getting paid to be at the most incredble place
ever. Not just be there, but go out every weekend and
sing!!! God has blessed me with such an incredible opportunity
and I have an amazing year coming up.
I have a blessing to share with ya'll:
I have this friend here at home who I've been praying for
forever. We've been good freinds since my sophmore year of high
school. Her family are very strong mormans so we've had many a
talk on religion. Throughout our first years of college, her and
I got into quite a bit of trouble together, so when I got my life right
with the Lord I never thought I could talk to her about it because I
already ruined my influence. So, Instead of helping her, it
brought me down time and time again cause I wouldn't stand up for what
I believed in. That is...until I attanded wolbi. This time
I was surrounded by amazing people and I was learning about the Bible
and how to share my faith and my relationship with Jesus was as strong
as ever. So, when I talked to her on the phone, all I talked
about was my amzing best friend, Jesus Christ. When I came home,
I didn't do everything that I used to do so she saw someone completely
different. This caused her to do some thinking and guess where
she might be going in January? You guessed it....Word of Life
Bible Institute!!!!! The one place that I never in a million years
would think she'd go, she has already filled out the application and is
waiting on acceptance!!!!! Praise God! HE really does
answer prayer!!!!!!! I have no doubt in my mind that if she is
receptive to the Bible(she was raised Morman) that God will use
His amazing word to change her heart. All I can do is pray now,
that she will be accepted and that she will be receptive to the only
thing that will ever change her. If ya'll could pray too, that
would be awesome!
GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!!!!
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| So, I've not been having such a good break. I just feel like I'm
visiting my family and that I'm not really home. Nothing is the
same here and no one is the same. It's tough cause I didn't want
things to be the same especially when in reguards to me and my
relationships, but literally nothing is the same. My sister in
law is pregnant, my best friend is pregnant. My mom is working
outside the home for the first time in her married life and my little
sisters and brothers are not so little anymore. My 20 year old
brother is showing signs of rebellion and becoming the person that I
was and it hurts to see that. My sister that I used to be best
friends with is now best friends with my mom and sister in law and she
won't really talk to me. The whole house has been re-arranged and
painted so nothing looks the same. I don't have my bedroom
anymore and all of my belongings are in storage. My good friends
have totally messed up thier lives. One of them is a lesbian, one
of then a sex adict, one of them a chain smoker, one of then going to
the biggest party school in Ohio, one of then an alcoholic and so forth
and so on. It just hurts cause I really wanted things to be
different cause I really let God take control of my life, but i don't
even have a home anymore. Life went on here without me and I had
to start a new life with none of my old friends and family in it, but
now I'm not a part of anyone's lives anymore. I knew everything
and everyone would be different, but this different???? It's so
crazy how much people change in just 8 months. I mean, I should
have been expecting it because of how much God changed me, but I didn't
expect the whole, "two-different lives" thing. I hate it and I
just want to be a part of my family again. I really wish I knew
what God was planning for my future. It seems to be something
that will be away from my family, but I don't know. It just
hurts. I really do want to be a part of my family again.
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